Lets break it high

2006-02-03T00:37:00.000+08:00

ITS TOO LATE

she is owned by him

what hav i 2 do?

notink could b done

juz e pain im bearing

like a glass broken to smaller pieces

broken to even smaller

seems so close yet so far

how can i live in despair

with tat gal holdin hands with him?

its too late now to even tell e truth

in my heart tat beats her name

on and on

2006-02-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

WAd a fucked up day 2 day...made me so pist off
my presentation cocked up...
2 make things worse i felt cheated by a fren..diz fren is so special 2 me.
i ask her out 4 lunch usually she agrees but 2 day she didnt say she dun wan but she say she was expecting a fren so wen she wanna eat she will holla me.
wen im at e foodcourt, she came w her clazmates. N she nv called. WAD E FUCK if she wanna eat w her frens i dun mind ah i can join coz i noe them all. Den i got no mood 2 eat. she came 2 me ande say HI.
She ask me whether im eating but i say nope, she ask y i said i got no mood.
After tat she go off. Doesnt hav abit of concern 4 me after lots of concern i gave. Den we didnt tok after tat.....
I was moody al e way.
If she dun wanna eat w me juz say so, im ok, its no big deal. its her choice.
Den i ask her out 4 dinner. she say dunno wanna eat or not n her ex is coming. 4 WAD?!!
she told me she doesnt lyk him anymore. dinner tym i ask her again. she say she ate already...
im so frust man....fuckin frust..she say dunni n she dun even bother 2 tell me tat she is going 2 eat w her ex. i juz couldnt understand her y she cant tell me straight. y mujz she make excuses...
it may b true but at least tell me... i dint eat 1 whole day juz 2 eat w her..
kindda stupud but i dun feel lyk eatin...
e mood will come wen she is ard...
Y didnt she c tat i lyk her so much...????? Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?YY?Y?
I JUZ DUN UNDERSTAND...wad shld i do..?
do i hav 2 avoid her or wad???
i dun wanna do tat coz every tym i saw her it makes me happy....
im suppose 2 help her in her model but she has done it halfway...
IS she trying 2 avoid me??????
somebody plz tell me...
my heart is crying,
my head is spinning, tinkin bout diz....
ouh its killing me.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

Lost my fav diary...
a blogi used 2 express my feelings.........here goes

I don't know why ifeel uneasy,

When is the time i feel differently;

The first lokk was nothing,

But the one after is more than something.

Never thought it will be this way,

But now i don't wan it to go away;

Seems so close yet so far,

Just can't see whats bothering you this far.

This tribulation cause you this tension,

Treatig your heratreding emotion is so intricate;

But i will always be at your attention,

As long as your heart soon alleviates.

Recently had diz feeling, easy said den done.